Where I am today

In His presence is where I must live. People will discourage us and some aren’t even aware they are doing it. Some believe because they have a place of leadership that it is okay to say what they want. Just because it’s good don’t mean it’s God. Just because you think it should be said, don’t mean it should be said. There is a time to speak up and a time to shut up, please use wisdom lives are at stake. So many people are compared to another person or persons and this has caused many to live beneath who they are. There is always so much competition to do better than the other person. It’s put up or shut up. One must get up there and outdo someone else. The intimidation is real only if you let it be. We truly must conquer our fears of our past so it does not stop our destiny. Let fears of what others think about us go. Let go of what people expect of you. Let go of how people view you according to themselves. Let go of religious mindsets and activities that hinder not help build a relationship with God and others. Let go of what you think about yourself if it not what God thinks about you. Do not worry about how others look but do you and be your best you. Daily it is necessary to encourage yourself and put your hope and trust in the Lord. So today where I am is seeking the Lord even in the midst of discouragement, tiredness, and being alone. Sometimes we must walk alone on our journey. We must know God is right with us if we sit still and reach out to Him. Amen. Today, as I go through my own journey, I am keeping myself in the Lord and seeking Him. It is also good to have friends that are for you and have no motives. God bless you.


Learning day by day

I’m learning how to live life with God first. I’m learning how to keep going keep moving and stay encouraged. Life can be pretty rough and lonely sometimes, but I’ve learned to cry out to the Lord in my loneliness and allow Him to fill that space. I am learning how to keep myself in prayerful mode. Jesus on my mind helps me get through each day. I’m learning how to be consistent and keep doing what God put in me to do. I’m still learning who I am and walking in that person daily. So much has been unfolding, a person who is strong, enduring, faithful to God, faithful to reading His Word, caring, loving, and learning to speak up in the name of Jesus. I am not easily intimidated or in fear any longer of what people think about me. I stand for God’s truth period. I am forever growing, compassionate, strong and always learning, Amen.


He thought he had me, he thought I was going to give in, he thought that his tormenting would lead me to stop, to give up, to throw in the towel or just weaken my strength but I did not quit seeking the Lord, even while I felt afraid. The fear led me to seek God even more to pray even more to praise even more to worship Him even more. I am victorious and anything trying to stop me from living victoriously will be stopped. I am strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. So, don’t quit don’t give up and keep your head up, because you’re worth it.


To Someone..

What has life without the One who gave us life in it? How can we know who we truly are and what our purpose is without seeking the One who gave us life and put purpose is us? I know without a purpose, life is overwhelming. I know without knowing who I am, life is heartbreaking, confusing, stifling and meaningless. I need more of God to know who I am. I need to hear God’s voice to know how to move forward. I need His direction to know which path to take. For one to continually go their own way leads to death, sometimes slowly. We want life, life, life and the Author and Creator of life is God the Father. Seek Him while He is still talking. I know I must hear and trust and know Him, or else life means nothing. I have nothing and I am nothing without Him. Amen


Living For Today…

Sometimes people talk about the future and that’s all well and good, but I’m just trying to get through today. Life happens moment by moment sometimes and we are not promised tomorrow, so today is the day where life happens, today is the day I need mercy, today is the day I need Grace, today is the day I live for. Today, I need God to tell me it’s okay, it’s alright, because I’m here and have not forgot about you. When it gets lonely in life, we need God to say I’m here today, right now for you, in this moment. So, today I’m just making it through today because tomorrow is not promised to us. Today is the day of salvation so my future is secure. No worries about that if we live as if today is all we have, because in God we are safe. God bless. 


What an Experience!

Can someone wake me from this nightmare? Is this really happening? I just never imagined this happening. What looked like a nightmare can really be a blessing. I had some unwelcome visitors come into my home at some point that I never knew were on the inside of my couches, our beds, and our dressers. What a sight this is in my home! Just having to live out of trash bags, sleeping on the floors, washing clothes non-stop, constantly having to keep it in order, it has been quite a tiring experience. So much I had to throw away, but out of that was less things to carry to a new place. I lost all my belongings except for a loveseat. To have everything and then it is gone by no fault of your own, I have to believe God is up to something. I am very tired from this whole deal but I thank God for His strength. I thank God for the mind of Christ, because I didn’t flip out or act crazy because I lost all my furniture. It’s quite expensive to start all over. I thank God for patience. Yes, my body is really hurting, because I can’t do what I used to, but His grace is sufficient in my weakness. God is up to something and He alone restores all that I need.

I can’t say it’s been easy because it hasn’t been. It’s been back breaking. In the midst of this, I know God has a plan. Even on the outside it may look depressing, but when we place our hope in the Father, He will turn this out for my good. Even though my body and hands are hurting, God is my Healer, Restorer and Comforter. I know God still got a plan. I choose to believe God. I choose to trust better is coming.



A True Mother’s Love

What is true love? True love is the sacrifice of Christ’s death for all mankind. True love is sacrifice.

True love is being sorry for your wrong’s, your pain, kindness, truth, honesty, hope, commitment, dedicated to helping someone else, compassion, and so much more. The reason for this explanation is love is a huge sacrifice. It is putting others before yourself. Jesus did this for us all. He is Love. If you choose Him you will find out what Love looks like and feels like. The Bible says, (Ephesians 4:19), to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. That fullness in turn will bless your life more than you could hope or think.

A true Mother’s love is sacrifice. She puts others before herself. She holds her children’s hands while they are sleep. She lovingly gazes at them while they are sleep. She prays over them while they are sleep. She prays over them before they leave in the morning and throughout the day and night. When they are older and in their own homes, she continues to pray for them. As I write this, I had tears come to my eyes, because of the love God has given me deep in my heart for my own children. He is Amazing. Because of His love for me, I can love my own children with such unconditional love. He has shown me that I can love them even when they are not acting good, just like we all do sometimes and God still loves us. The joy of being a mother is loving my children, being there for them, and thanking God for the opportunity to teach, discipline, nurture and raise up young lives. God gives mother’s patience. Through the up and downs of being a mother, we still see the joy and the light. Take time to always enjoy your gifts from the Lord in listening to them, helping them, understanding them, and supporting them. Ask God for His wisdom in handling the difficulties of motherhood. We cannot do it alone. Love them unconditionally and not conditionally! Do not give up on them! Start early and do right and if you did not start early, do the best from what stage you are in with them. Repent and ask for forgiveness, as well as, asking your children to forgive you too. A true mother has joy in raising her children under the love and discipline of the Lord. True love comes from a relationship with the Father. Happy Mother’s Day Ladies!


God Conscious 

Conscious means being aware of something. What I’m talking about here is being fully aware of God. One is aware of His existence, being sensitive to His Spirit, discerning of God, able to recognize God, and one’s mind is fully active and aware of God. “the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power”(Ephesians 1:18‭-‬19 NKJV). Our disobedience separates us from God. So, with this our consciousness is not thinking about God like we ought to. Many forget about God, but we need Him to survive. The Bible is our Manual that teaches is how to live this life. Jesus came to earth to speak, teach, and preach to mankind about new life. He gave us the tools to live upright if we stay conscious of God in obedience to His will. He created us all by His own breath. We must be renewed in our walk, talk, and mindsets. To continually be renewed daily by a relationship with Jesus. Our thinking is first (Romans 12:2). The mind of Christ is what we ask for daily. God the Father, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit are in us (1 Corinthians 2:11-16) when you belong to God. Continue to examine yourself to make sure you are of the faith and not just saying you’re a Christian, but truly living by your faith in Jesus Christ. Tell self to die daily, kill that fleshly thinking, so nothing will hinder you from allowing yourself to be fully aware of God. We must know and recognize that we are chosen vessels that God uses to pour through to speak life and save souls. “I have been crucified with Christ it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me” (Galatians 2:20 NKJV). The Christian theology is just this, my flesh no longer is in control, but the Holy Spirit is. It is not enough to say I’m saved, Christian’s must be united with Christ and what  He did, His life, death and resurrection. “For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ” (Galatians 3:27 NKJV). “To live is Christ, to die is gain” (Philippians 1:21 NKJV).  God knows us, we need to take time with Him to know Him even more. As we mature in God, we can fully know Him better, until one day Christ is fully formed in us. We choose You God over everything. Yes, Jesus went through so shall we, but in Him, He is with us always. He promises to never leave us, always a Present Help. Keep your faith and trust in God, fully aware and conscious of His existence and His voice. To know Him is to be in love. God bless. To be Free. Amen.  



The desecration of Human Life…

The dictionary says  desecrate- to divest (strip, rob deprive) sacred (sanctified, blessed) or hallowed character or office, to divert from a sacred to a profane use or purpose, to treat with sacrilege

World English Dictionary-  to violate or outrage the sacred character of (an object or place) by destructive, blasphemous, or sacrilegious action,  to remove the consecration from (a person, object, building, etc.); deconsecrate  , defile, violate, dishonor, pollute, outrage

To make unholy—vow to take the very thing God made good and make it bad, to remove the blessed state of a human and strip and rob it of its life (rob-the thief comes to steal kill and destroy) But God came to give us life and that life more abundantly (John 10:10).

People have allowed the enemy in their minds to steal the consecration and sanctification that He placed in them-this is those who belong to God, His people, saints, and Christians by living in violation of His holiness…He is so Holy, Holy, Holy!!  You cannot do what you want and live how you want to live and say something is okay when God says it is not. You cannot pick and choose what verses of His word you feel like obeying and the rest don’t apply because flesh doesn’t agree with them. You cannot make the word work the way you feel it should based on your own way of living. That is not holy and it most certainly is not of God. He alone is God!!!

The desecration of human life and the mutation of the human species is created by God not by the hands of man. Man did not create the human life form. They may think they are creating life in these test tubes, sperm banks, and others forms of creating life their way, but it is not the way God designed life to be created. God created man according to His mouth (Genesis 1:26- 28, read these and 31).  God said for man and woman to procreate and multiply only. God showed me this in a dream—God showed me deformities all over this earth. There were so much I was stepping over them spreaded all over the ground of the earth. What a sight! I saw arms coming from sides, legs comes from sides, heads on sides, body parts growing from places they should not be, all I could do was weep.  Such enormous deformity all over the world. Why? Because of sin and the gross darkness of the minds of the world.  God loves all people, but He does not love the sin that humans do.  God created a male and a female and told them to multiply. He did not say take life or make life the way that is suitable for human desires or human will or according to the plans and desires of human beings. Humans have been playing God for many, many years and doing things their own way. Scientists are not God. God put the knowledge in them to do what they do, but they twist some things to benefit and make money or to satisfy the needs of the human mind. Pride is prevalent all over this world. Male and female –Adam and Eve was the first relationship of humans that was created to multiply. This means according to the Word of God that God ordained marriage for the male and female and they are to make between them life. God blessed this union and the children. God does not bless unholy unions if they are not what He created in His Word (He made them male and female), His plan not your plans not your thinking, not your fleshly desires. The law of the world is not the law of the Kingdom. The plan of man is not the plan of God, His thoughts are higher than the thoughts of man, these unholy fleshly unions that go against the Word of God are not in tune with the standards of God nor are they blessed by God. Yes, everyone person is loved by God, but the marriages and relationships that have been allowed in this world by human laws, these man-made laws that conform to the desires of humans, that do not include marriage as God intended from the beginning are not of God. Does not matter how many times you go to church, how much you pray, how much you say you love one another, in the eyes of God, it is still unholy and will not be blessed. If you continue to live unholy you will live in hell.  The design and plan of God is a male and female marriage only.  If a man lies with a male as he lies with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination. They shall surely be put to death. Their blood shall be upon them. (NKJV, Leviticus 20:13 Old Testament). Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised Amen. Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones.  In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion (Romans 1:24-27, New Testament). I gave two places in the Bible for those who still believe the Old Testament is outlawed, I gave the New Testament verse as well.

Deformities- a condition in which part of the body does not have the normal or expected shape. Deformity- to spoil the natural beauty of, disfigure, to alter the shape by pressure or shape. Judges 17:6 says, “In those days there was no king in Israel; everyone did what was right in his own eyes, there is destruction of people by being led in sin of their fleshly desires of what they think is right. Where is the body of Christ? Where is the order and where is the unity? Corruption and chaos is rampant, people have been changed from their original form, impairment of integrity virtue or moral principles, departure from original or from what is pure or correct, dishonest illegal behavior by those in power! Chaos, complete confusion, and disorder  in which behavior and events are not controlled by anything but the enemy of our souls. God is the only one who can set things back in order. Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.  They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity (very evil and immoral behaviors). They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they have no understanding, no fidelity, no love, no mercy. Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them. Romans 1:28-32. (Anger that leads to…homosexuality, corruption, gossip, manipulation, revenge) why approve of this when God does not, to win people’s approval or votes? As you worship those God created, you no longer worship God, bringing destruction to yourselves.

What is the answer? Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand! Turn from your unholy desires, turn from your wickedness and murders and surrender to God. How you say? Just say, God help me to give up everything and serve You, help me Lord I surrender all evil I surrender all that is not of You, whatever in my life is not approved by You, I am asking that You remove it today. Remove everything God, help me God, I no longer want to live in my mess, I repent and I ask You to come in and save me Turn yourself over to God and live for God fully. Amen.


Where I am

Life has it’s way of  shaping us or destroying us, it all depends on how you live. My life has its ups and downs, but one thing I do know is God is constant and never changing in my life. My struggles, upsets, pain, and hurt are cast on Him. I certainly will not carry it anymore. I cannot be who He is calling me to be if I keep trying to carry life’s burdens and life’s struggles, but casting them on God, my Father, guarantees that I will not live in stress or hurt. Yes, we get hurt and life has stresses, but choosing to carry them myself and keeping them on me and in me, I choose not to do. I am finally seeing the vision God has for me. I am finally seeing a glimpse of things He has for me to do. We can hinder our own destiny by how we think about ourselves. It takes a long time sometimes to see past the dark that once clouded our minds and the hurt that filled our hearts. I made the choice to move beyond this place. I made the choice to look over into the Light. I made the choice to see further than my environment dictates to me all my life. I am making the choice to change my destiny and how my life will be. I choose to allow my children to no longer see me as just being mom, but as a strong woman of God taking action for my destiny. They will see God move as I move. They will know God did this, because I chose to go forth into what God put in me to do and no longer waste what gifts He put in me. I am desperate to please God with what He put in me. Our gifts are to be used to glorify God. For so long, I had no clue what I was to do, who I was, or what gifts I have, and some stuff I still am learning, but I choose to glorify God with my life. What I do know is I choose to make God proud of what I do know and ask Him to lead me into the rest I don’t know. I choose to encourage and inspire others to get up from that place of despair and take action to participate in your destiny. Fear will no longer stop me from taking part in my destiny. I will have what God said I can have and I will bless those He said to bless. I will encourage, counsel and speak life to dying people. I will uplift, admonish, teach, and help to establish others to walk into their destiny. Amen. I am determined to write and speak out on my life to not only change my life, but to change the lives of others who thought like me. You can step out of your past environment and make a great difference for you and others. I am a living witness to this change. I will no longer be still, but stand and fight for my destiny and for the destiny of my children and all those who God calls me to speak life into. Amen. I am a work in progress, but a great work in progress. God I give You all the glory, honor and praise and worship for my life. Amen. Just watch and see what God does through me. I dare you to take action and be courageous in the face of your environment. God bless you.