What an Experience!

Can someone wake me from this nightmare? Is this really happening? I just never imagined this happening. What looked like a nightmare can really be a blessing. I had some unwelcome visitors come into my home at some point that I never knew were on the inside of my couches, our beds, and our dressers. What a sight this is in my home! Just having to live out of trash bags, sleeping on the floors, washing clothes non-stop, constantly having to keep it in order, it has been quite a tiring experience. So much I had to throw away, but out of that was less things to carry to a new place. I lost all my belongings except for a loveseat. To have everything and then it is gone by no fault of your own, I have to believe God is up to something. I am very tired from this whole deal but I thank God for His strength. I thank God for the mind of Christ, because I didn’t flip out or act crazy because I lost all my furniture. It’s quite expensive to start all over. I thank God for patience. Yes, my body is really hurting, because I can’t do what I used to, but His grace is sufficient in my weakness. God is up to something and He alone restores all that I need.

I can’t say it’s been easy because it hasn’t been. It’s been back breaking. In the midst of this, I know God has a plan. Even on the outside it may look depressing, but when we place our hope in the Father, He will turn this out for my good. Even though my body and hands are hurting, God is my Healer, Restorer and Comforter. I know God still got a plan. I choose to believe God. I choose to trust better is coming.


A True Mother’s Love

What is true love? True love is the sacrifice of Christ’s death for all mankind. True love is sacrifice.

True love is being sorry for your wrong’s, your pain, kindness, truth, honesty, hope, commitment, dedicated to helping someone else, compassion, and so much more. The reason for this explanation is love is a huge sacrifice. It is putting others before yourself. Jesus did this for us all. He is Love. If you choose Him you will find out what Love looks like and feels like. The Bible says, (Ephesians 4:19), to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. That fullness in turn will bless your life more than you could hope or think.

A true Mother’s love is sacrifice. She puts others before herself. She holds her children’s hands while they are sleep. She lovingly gazes at them while they are sleep. She prays over them while they are sleep. She prays over them before they leave in the morning and throughout the day and night. When they are older and in their own homes, she continues to pray for them. As I write this, I had tears come to my eyes, because of the love God has given me deep in my heart for my own children. He is Amazing. Because of His love for me, I can love my own children with such unconditional love. He has shown me that I can love them even when they are not acting good, just like we all do sometimes and God still loves us. The joy of being a mother is loving my children, being there for them, and thanking God for the opportunity to teach, discipline, nurture and raise up young lives. God gives mother’s patience. Through the up and downs of being a mother, we still see the joy and the light. Take time to always enjoy your gifts from the Lord in listening to them, helping them, understanding them, and supporting them. Ask God for His wisdom in handling the difficulties of motherhood. We cannot do it alone. Love them unconditionally and not conditionally! Do not give up on them! Start early and do right and if you did not start early, do the best from what stage you are in with them. Repent and ask for forgiveness, as well as, asking your children to forgive you too. A true mother has joy in raising her children under the love and discipline of the Lord. True love comes from a relationship with the Father. Happy Mother’s Day Ladies!

God Conscious 

Conscious means being aware of something. What I’m talking about here is being fully aware of God. One is aware of His existence, being sensitive to His Spirit, discerning of God, able to recognize God, and one’s mind is fully active and aware of God. “the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power”(Ephesians 1:18‭-‬19 NKJV). Our disobedience separates us from God. So, with this our consciousness is not thinking about God like we ought to. Many forget about God, but we need Him to survive. The Bible is our Manual that teaches is how to live this life. Jesus came to earth to speak, teach, and preach to mankind about new life. He gave us the tools to live upright if we stay conscious of God in obedience to His will. He created us all by His own breath. We must be renewed in our walk, talk, and mindsets. To continually be renewed daily by a relationship with Jesus. Our thinking is first (Romans 12:2). The mind of Christ is what we ask for daily. God the Father, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit are in us (1 Corinthians 2:11-16) when you belong to God. Continue to examine yourself to make sure you are of the faith and not just saying you’re a Christian, but truly living by your faith in Jesus Christ. Tell self to die daily, kill that fleshly thinking, so nothing will hinder you from allowing yourself to be fully aware of God. We must know and recognize that we are chosen vessels that God uses to pour through to speak life and save souls. “I have been crucified with Christ it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me” (Galatians 2:20 NKJV). The Christian theology is just this, my flesh no longer is in control, but the Holy Spirit is. It is not enough to say I’m saved, Christian’s must be united with Christ and what  He did, His life, death and resurrection. “For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ” (Galatians 3:27 NKJV). “To live is Christ, to die is gain” (Philippians 1:21 NKJV).  God knows us, we need to take time with Him to know Him even more. As we mature in God, we can fully know Him better, until one day Christ is fully formed in us. We choose You God over everything. Yes, Jesus went through so shall we, but in Him, He is with us always. He promises to never leave us, always a Present Help. Keep your faith and trust in God, fully aware and conscious of His existence and His voice. To know Him is to be in love. God bless. To be Free. Amen.  


The desecration of Human Life…

The dictionary says  desecrate- to divest (strip, rob deprive) sacred (sanctified, blessed) or hallowed character or office, to divert from a sacred to a profane use or purpose, to treat with sacrilege

World English Dictionary-  to violate or outrage the sacred character of (an object or place) by destructive, blasphemous, or sacrilegious action,  to remove the consecration from (a person, object, building, etc.); deconsecrate  , defile, violate, dishonor, pollute, outrage

To make unholy—vow to take the very thing God made good and make it bad, to remove the blessed state of a human and strip and rob it of its life (rob-the thief comes to steal kill and destroy) But God came to give us life and that life more abundantly (John 10:10).

People have allowed the enemy in their minds to steal the consecration and sanctification that He placed in them-this is those who belong to God, His people, saints, and Christians by living in violation of His holiness…He is so Holy, Holy, Holy!!  You cannot do what you want and live how you want to live and say something is okay when God says it is not. You cannot pick and choose what verses of His word you feel like obeying and the rest don’t apply because flesh doesn’t agree with them. You cannot make the word work the way you feel it should based on your own way of living. That is not holy and it most certainly is not of God. He alone is God!!!

The desecration of human life and the mutation of the human species is created by God not by the hands of man. Man did not create the human life form. They may think they are creating life in these test tubes, sperm banks, and others forms of creating life their way, but it is not the way God designed life to be created. God created man according to His mouth (Genesis 1:26- 28, read these and 31).  God said for man and woman to procreate and multiply only. God showed me this in a dream—God showed me deformities all over this earth. There were so much I was stepping over them spreaded all over the ground of the earth. What a sight! I saw arms coming from sides, legs comes from sides, heads on sides, body parts growing from places they should not be, all I could do was weep.  Such enormous deformity all over the world. Why? Because of sin and the gross darkness of the minds of the world.  God loves all people, but He does not love the sin that humans do.  God created a male and a female and told them to multiply. He did not say take life or make life the way that is suitable for human desires or human will or according to the plans and desires of human beings. Humans have been playing God for many, many years and doing things their own way. Scientists are not God. God put the knowledge in them to do what they do, but they twist some things to benefit and make money or to satisfy the needs of the human mind. Pride is prevalent all over this world. Male and female –Adam and Eve was the first relationship of humans that was created to multiply. This means according to the Word of God that God ordained marriage for the male and female and they are to make between them life. God blessed this union and the children. God does not bless unholy unions if they are not what He created in His Word (He made them male and female), His plan not your plans not your thinking, not your fleshly desires. The law of the world is not the law of the Kingdom. The plan of man is not the plan of God, His thoughts are higher than the thoughts of man, these unholy fleshly unions that go against the Word of God are not in tune with the standards of God nor are they blessed by God. Yes, everyone person is loved by God, but the marriages and relationships that have been allowed in this world by human laws, these man-made laws that conform to the desires of humans, that do not include marriage as God intended from the beginning are not of God. Does not matter how many times you go to church, how much you pray, how much you say you love one another, in the eyes of God, it is still unholy and will not be blessed. If you continue to live unholy you will live in hell.  The design and plan of God is a male and female marriage only.  If a man lies with a male as he lies with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination. They shall surely be put to death. Their blood shall be upon them. (NKJV, Leviticus 20:13 Old Testament). Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised Amen. Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones.  In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion (Romans 1:24-27, New Testament). I gave two places in the Bible for those who still believe the Old Testament is outlawed, I gave the New Testament verse as well.

Deformities- a condition in which part of the body does not have the normal or expected shape. Deformity- to spoil the natural beauty of, disfigure, to alter the shape by pressure or shape. Judges 17:6 says, “In those days there was no king in Israel; everyone did what was right in his own eyes, there is destruction of people by being led in sin of their fleshly desires of what they think is right. Where is the body of Christ? Where is the order and where is the unity? Corruption and chaos is rampant, people have been changed from their original form, impairment of integrity virtue or moral principles, departure from original or from what is pure or correct, dishonest illegal behavior by those in power! Chaos, complete confusion, and disorder  in which behavior and events are not controlled by anything but the enemy of our souls. God is the only one who can set things back in order. Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.  They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity (very evil and immoral behaviors). They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they have no understanding, no fidelity, no love, no mercy. Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them. Romans 1:28-32. (Anger that leads to…homosexuality, corruption, gossip, manipulation, revenge) why approve of this when God does not, to win people’s approval or votes? As you worship those God created, you no longer worship God, bringing destruction to yourselves.

What is the answer? Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand! Turn from your unholy desires, turn from your wickedness and murders and surrender to God. How you say? Just say, God help me to give up everything and serve You, help me Lord I surrender all evil I surrender all that is not of You, whatever in my life is not approved by You, I am asking that You remove it today. Remove everything God, help me God, I no longer want to live in my mess, I repent and I ask You to come in and save me Turn yourself over to God and live for God fully. Amen.

Where I am

Life has it’s way of  shaping us or destroying us, it all depends on how you live. My life has its ups and downs, but one thing I do know is God is constant and never changing in my life. My struggles, upsets, pain, and hurt are cast on Him. I certainly will not carry it anymore. I cannot be who He is calling me to be if I keep trying to carry life’s burdens and life’s struggles, but casting them on God, my Father, guarantees that I will not live in stress or hurt. Yes, we get hurt and life has stresses, but choosing to carry them myself and keeping them on me and in me, I choose not to do. I am finally seeing the vision God has for me. I am finally seeing a glimpse of things He has for me to do. We can hinder our own destiny by how we think about ourselves. It takes a long time sometimes to see past the dark that once clouded our minds and the hurt that filled our hearts. I made the choice to move beyond this place. I made the choice to look over into the Light. I made the choice to see further than my environment dictates to me all my life. I am making the choice to change my destiny and how my life will be. I choose to allow my children to no longer see me as just being mom, but as a strong woman of God taking action for my destiny. They will see God move as I move. They will know God did this, because I chose to go forth into what God put in me to do and no longer waste what gifts He put in me. I am desperate to please God with what He put in me. Our gifts are to be used to glorify God. For so long, I had no clue what I was to do, who I was, or what gifts I have, and some stuff I still am learning, but I choose to glorify God with my life. What I do know is I choose to make God proud of what I do know and ask Him to lead me into the rest I don’t know. I choose to encourage and inspire others to get up from that place of despair and take action to participate in your destiny. Fear will no longer stop me from taking part in my destiny. I will have what God said I can have and I will bless those He said to bless. I will encourage, counsel and speak life to dying people. I will uplift, admonish, teach, and help to establish others to walk into their destiny. Amen. I am determined to write and speak out on my life to not only change my life, but to change the lives of others who thought like me. You can step out of your past environment and make a great difference for you and others. I am a living witness to this change. I will no longer be still, but stand and fight for my destiny and for the destiny of my children and all those who God calls me to speak life into. Amen. I am a work in progress, but a great work in progress. God I give You all the glory, honor and praise and worship for my life. Amen. Just watch and see what God does through me. I dare you to take action and be courageous in the face of your environment. God bless you.

Yes Lord,

I have obeyed what I heard awhile ago. I live in a small apartment but it’s okay. I don’t expect people to want to come around here, but I see it don’t even matter. God got this! I chose to start speaking, teaching, giving out, praying in my apartment. It’s called To Be of Help Ministry. The reason being obedience to the Father and the compassion and love in my heart. I love to see people grow, to have joy, to be well, to be helped, to smile and to be loved. I prayed for a heart like Jesus. I’m getting along in this, but a long way to go. What a blessing it is to my heart for God to trust me with the care of others! Truly I am honored by His trust in me. When I spoke, the Lord was speaking through me to these women. Later on after I sat down, I got so excited because I knew the Holy Ghost was speaking and was in the room during the gathering. What an honor to have the Presence of God in the midst because of obedience to His will. I worship Him in spirit and in truth daily. So, just excited to see what He does at the next one, as I seek His face daily and sit in His presence. Do you desire to have prayer, worship, bible study, gathering’s to share the love of God and His word? Just step out on faith and do it!

Just thinking..

So much going on in life. We got personal struggles and not so personal struggles. Sometimes life seems to be still but it never really is. There is just so many distractions in life, so much lying, pain, abuse, hatred and so forth, it is really hard sometimes to not allow some of these negatives to intrude in our lives. While we see these negatives and evils daily, it is mostly a choice to indulge or not. Sometimes, people involve us before we have a chance but thank God at times we can bail out. I choose to bail out all the time. I have chose a path, a way that leads away from destruction, though it is still not easy, I thank God for His help. To be honest, without God interfering many of us would already be dead. So, while life happens I thank God for the One who is my Life. He picks me up and carries me some days. He lets me sit in His lap some days. He talks to me and I talk to Him. This is the only way that I get through life. God first above everything..


Wow, how life happens sometimes is just scary. The choices we make have consequences either good or bad. Before a decision is made count up the cost, take a few minutes and think about it. Sometimes a choice a decision can cost lives. Do not allow yourself to make split second decisions when the action calls for a thinking decision. Write it down, think on it, consult someone trustworthy if need be, but for goodness sakes, count up the cost. Our lives and the choices we make have consequences, so prayerfully consider your decision before you take action. 


In life we will go through much pain. it could be physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. My personal experience has been through them all because they all are related. I want to talk about my experience with physical pain and how it’s tied in with all these and how God uses what we go through to take us close to Him and with a greater impact. I have been going through physical pain for many years. It has been one thing after another. Allergies, hives, all over body pain in every area, headaches, migraines, bone pain, nerve pain, women troubles and pain, heart broken pain and more. So much we go through as people and so much more I didn’t name but you get the picture. Sickness, death, and our lives all play a part in all these areas on our lives. My physical pain has caused me to seek God even more. When I am weak, He is strong. I lean on Him I trust Him fully. This fully is a personal relationship because it’s a process as we live our life. We build up our trust and faith as we experience life. Physical pain hurts just as much as other pains, but it depends on how we handle them. Some say if you get punched you can heal, but the emotional pain takes longer. So look at it that way. The physical pain I am still going through that has been one thing or another for many years has caused other pain emotionally. This bothers us in many ways and can turn into pains dealing with our mental state too. So in order to get a handle on all this pain we can either turn to God or turn to the world. I chose God and I chose to get other help as He led me. It’s okay to get therapy. It is okay to use pain medication as needed, but as a child of God I had to seek God first.If your not saved, repent and be saved. It’s the best relationship you will ever have. So, I did not turn from God in my pain  but I turned to Him. I wasn’t as strong as I thought when I started this process but strength comes. I know we need God to make it through anything. In my pain, I got to know God more, I got to seek Him more, I got to read His word more, I got to pray more, I got to hear Him more and I will obey Him. I praised God and I worshipped God. Through this pain I have spoken to others and shared how God uses our personal struggles to make us better and stronger for His purposes in our lives. I definitely have learned to trust God with my mind, my body, my finances (tithes, offerings), my children, my health, everything belongs to Him. I TRUST YOU FATHER GOD! So when the pains comes, turn to God not away from God. He will sustain you, change you and keep you which transforms you into who He created you to be each day. Then you can walk and operate in to your full potential Amen.

I am Beautiful

I am Beautiful without your fancy, high-heeled shoes

I am beautiful without your fancy dresses, your fancy blouses and fancy skirts

I am beautiful without your encouragement

I am beautiful in spite of your not saying so

I am beautiful without you noticing me

I am beautiful without your acknowlegement

I am still beautiful without your words of appreciation

I am beautiful still, even when you compare me to others;  I can love myself

Even when you see my picture, I am beautiful even though you never say so

I am beautiful even when I hurt and you cannot hug me

Because God told me I am beautiful. He is proud of me, He loves me, He encourages me, He tells me how great I am doing, I am pleasing Him

 He appreciates me, He loves me for me, He acknowledges me, He hugs me, He comforts me, He notices me, He does not compare me to anyone for I am the apple of His eye, He is in love with me just like I am.

Among other things God has put in me to be an encourager and I encourage you to tune out foolishness, comparisons, people who do not appreciate you, the fakes, the pretenders, the negativity and see yourself as God sees you, BEAUTIFUL!  So live to please Him!